“Some years ago I learned a
lesson that I shall never forget. I had been called as an Assistant to the
Council of the Twelve, and we were to move to Salt Lake City and find an
adequate and permanent home. President Henry D. Moyle assigned someone to help
us. A home was located that was ideally
suited to our needs. Elder Harold B. Lee came and looked it over very carefully
and then counseled, "By all means, you are to proceed." But there was
no way we could proceed. I had just completed the course work on a doctor's
degree and was writing the dissertation. With the support of my wife and our
eight children, all of the resources we could gather over the years had been
spent on education. By borrowing on our insurance, gathering every resource, we
could barely get into the house, without sufficient left to even make the first
monthly payment. Brother Lee insisted, "Go ahead. I know it is
right." I was in deep turmoil because I had been counseled to do something
I had never done before—to sign a contract without having the resources to meet
the payments. When Brother Lee sensed my feelings he sent me to President David
O. McKay, who listened very carefully as I explained the circumstances. He
said, "You do this. It is the right thing." But he extended no
resources to make the doing of it possible. When I reported to Brother Lee he
said, "That confirms what I have told you." I was still not at peace,
and then came the lesson. Elder Lee said, "Do you know what is wrong with
you-you always want to see the end from the beginning." I replied quietly
that I wanted to see at least a few steps ahead. He answered by quoting from
the sixth verse of the twelfth chapter of Ether: "Wherefore, dispute not
because ye see not, for ye receive no witness until after the trial of your
faith." And then he added, "My boy, you must learn to walk to the
edge of the light, and perhaps a few steps into the darkness, and you will find
that the light will appear and move ahead of you." And so it has—but only
as we walked to the edge of the light. And so it is with this work. We can
build those thousands of temples and we can work for the redemption of our dead
by the thousands and tens of thousands and millions. We have not yet moved to
the edge of the light, either as individuals or as a church. We have not used
all of the resources yet available to us. I am confident that as we move to the
edge of the light, like the cloud that led the Israelites, or like the star
that led the wise men, the light will move ahead of us and we can do this work." (Packer, Boyd K. The Holy Temple. Salt Lake City, Utah: Bookcraft, 1980.)
Over the years I have filled notebooks and journals with handwritten notes in many areas of scripture study. An illness has changed the pattern of my days, and I find myself with hours to reflect and contemplate. Often as I lay awake at night a memory or thought will surface; hence the title of this blog. I have tried to capture and organize thoughts that have helped along my path. The entries are random. Using the labeling system or search function should help.
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